I'm a mommy and a wife. I take care of everyone and everything before myself. If I'm sick I try to get through it. My nails can go unpainted for weeks but the dishes don't sit in the sink. I will get a restless nights sleep to take care of others. I drink too much coffee in the mornings and don't get nearly enough exercise. I have been known to skip lunch and push back my own appointments to make room for others.
It's all part of being mommy I'm told. That isn't good enough. I deserve more and so does my family. I can't take care of others if I'm not taking care of myself and enough is enough! This is the year! I'm thirty and I should feel amazing. Instead I feel terrible every single day. I wake up and never feel rested enough. I'm dependent on caffeine. I've allowed myself to make bad choices. I have awful anxiety and I've put off appointments and not made appointments. I've continued to say that I will see a specialist for my thyroid disorder and have yet to make it a priority. My treadmill sits lonely and my Nike's are as clean as the day I bought them. I'm tired of feeling tired. Tired of worrying about everyone else when I really need to make changes for myself. This isn't about a diet or an appointment or two. This is about me being more than just mommy. This is about feeling strong and well. It's about making my health a priority and feeling great. It's about our lifestyle.
It's going to be especially tough at first. I may want to give up and go back to my old ways. I may forget once in a while and put everyone ahead of my own needs but that is life. I will always be a mommy and wife but making these changes is what's important. I need to remember through this process that mistakes are proof that I'm trying. I may find it necessary to have a few break downs but I will learn better coping skills for my anxiety. I will learn to lean more on my family and allow them to support me. I'm confused and wish that I had a plan of bringing on all of these lifestyle changes but I don't and that's okay. I'm not sure how these changes are going to work but everyone must start somewhere.
Hey Beth. It can be so hard to change old habits, but with the support of your family and friends I hope you begin to feel better soon. I recently cut gluten, sugar and caffeine out of my diet and I have been feeling much more energetic - it's funny how things like sleep and diet have such a big impact on your general well-being and state of mind. Anyway, all the best to you :)
ReplyDeleteKudos to you for making health a priority this year! I made that decision myself a couple of years ago and started on a better vitamin regimen, getting more protein, getting toxic cleaners out of my house, etc. and it has made SUCH a difference!
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Krysta
I am in the same boat as you. Weight is creeping back on, I am constantly fatigued and I rarely exercise. Even though there is the superficial - "I want to look better," - it really is more about health at this point. I know I can't continue down this path. I am certainly not getting any younger!! Maybe we can help support each other. It is always nice to have a buddy when you are making these kinds of changes. :)
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