Thursday, January 10, 2013
Health in 2013
I'm a mommy and a wife. I take care of everyone and everything before myself. If I'm sick I try to get through it. My nails can go unpainted for weeks but the dishes don't sit in the sink. I will get a restless nights sleep to take care of others. I drink too much coffee in the mornings and don't get nearly enough exercise. I have been known to skip lunch and push back my own appointments to make room for others.
It's all part of being mommy I'm told. That isn't good enough. I deserve more and so does my family. I can't take care of others if I'm not taking care of myself and enough is enough! This is the year! I'm thirty and I should feel amazing. Instead I feel terrible every single day. I wake up and never feel rested enough. I'm dependent on caffeine. I've allowed myself to make bad choices. I have awful anxiety and I've put off appointments and not made appointments. I've continued to say that I will see a specialist for my thyroid disorder and have yet to make it a priority. My treadmill sits lonely and my Nike's are as clean as the day I bought them. I'm tired of feeling tired. Tired of worrying about everyone else when I really need to make changes for myself. This isn't about a diet or an appointment or two. This is about me being more than just mommy. This is about feeling strong and well. It's about making my health a priority and feeling great. It's about our lifestyle.
It's going to be especially tough at first. I may want to give up and go back to my old ways. I may forget once in a while and put everyone ahead of my own needs but that is life. I will always be a mommy and wife but making these changes is what's important. I need to remember through this process that mistakes are proof that I'm trying. I may find it necessary to have a few break downs but I will learn better coping skills for my anxiety. I will learn to lean more on my family and allow them to support me. I'm confused and wish that I had a plan of bringing on all of these lifestyle changes but I don't and that's okay. I'm not sure how these changes are going to work but everyone must start somewhere.